...to reply to individually so this blog goes out to all of you. I've never seen so many of you come to the rescue so quickly. You guys are freakin' awesome! For those of you who don't know, I got my first 25 days quit by using the patch. It's when I went down too quickly that I failed. I didn't have a single puff the whole time I was on it and it wasn't very hard. Don't get me wrong, I had my moments, but it was doable. What I should have done was stay on the 21 mgs for the maximum amount of time (6 weeks), then go down to the 14 mgs for 6 weeks, and then 7 mgs for 6 weeks...then be done with it. I tried doing two weeks at a time for each. It was the first few days of the 7 mgs that I suddenly became fixated on my husband's pack of cigarettes on his desk. That's when I formulated my plan, without even thinking about coming here first, how was I going to snag a cigarette from him. Well of course I managed to and all of my good thinking went straight out the window. It was a very impulsive moment that I simply gave into without much of a fight. Then I started playing with fire on and off from that point forward...until now. In addition, my daughter and granddaughter came for a week's visit and I wasn't able to stay close to this site for the entire week, like I had before. I used to be on every day. Although I didn't smoke, and she's a smoker too, I lost my focus by not being here. By reading the blogs I was able to stay strong in my own quit. It was like I was attending a daily AA meeting or something.
I DO NOT want to keep starting over again, so if it means going on the patch again so that I don't smoke a cigarette then that's what I'm going to do. I've got 14 and 7 mg patches left...I'm putting on one of each as soon as I leave here until I can go out tomorrow and get the 21's. So that's my plan, although some of you may not agree with it, I've got to give myself every chance.
Thank you for coming out in HOARDS to knock some sense into this sick addicted mind of mine. You are all so incredibly kind and helpful.
