I am quitting tomorrow, I will be an ex smoker... I like the sound of that... I know that it's going to be hard, I've tried so many times in the past but was not successful. I know quite a few triggers now, and I'm sure I will discover more over the next little while.
My mother is an ex smoker, just hit her three month mark, and I figure if she can do it, so can I. My sister is going to quit tomorrow as well, but I'm not counting on her to help me. My partner and room mate are really the ones who I need on board. They both smoke, but have agreed to take it outside and not smoke in front of me for a few days.
Other than that, I have made the usual preparations, bottled water and a new brita filter, tootsie-pops to keep my mouth busy, 3 bulk balls of yarn to keep my hands busy, and a challenge to write 7,000 words on my new novel this weekend to keep my head busy. I'm going to use my laptop somewhere other than the office for that, considering it's going to take a couple of weeks of cleaning and airing out to get rid of the smoke smell in here. It's kind of disgusting that I can smell it so strong and I have a smokers sense of smell, I think I would be sick if I came in here when not smoking.
Tomorrow I plan on washing my bedding and all of my clothes, cleaning a bit around the house, writing, and doing some work on a couple of blankets for the winter. I love my 150 year old townhouse, it's drafty which gives me a reason to make blankets. I may go through a lot of tootsie-pops tomorrow, but halloween is coming, so there will be lots of them available for the next month.
I don't know what else to write about right now. I'm just looking to tomorrow with a mixture of excitement and anxiety. One thing is for certain though, I'm more determined this time than I have been in years.
