I am 57 days quit today. Unreal. I have not lifted, puffed, or purchased a cigarette in 57 days. This is definitely new territory for me. I have had some really wonderful days. Days where I feel my confidence and clarity return. Man o Man, those days feel great and really help reinforce the importance of this quit. I also have had some recurring tough days - foggy, vulnerable, insecure. I have accepted the fact that I am a non smoker. I have accepted the fact that that part of me is in the past. I have also accepted the fact that I will edure some difficult times during this journey of recovery. My struggle has been with these diffcult times. I feel as if Im a shell of myself at these times and its quite uncomfortable. I find my mind working overtime on thoughts that were previously passive while I was a smoker. At these times, I begin to question whether this quit is worth it, and whether my present peace of mind is more valuable than the long term benefits of a smoke free life . The good news? Im still here and I'm still a non smoker. I know im new in this quit, but I also feel that I have come so far in my 57 days. I will keep moving forward. Day by day, im confident that it will get better. Thank you Ex Community for being here.
