Today according to my record if I stopped on the 3rd and today is the 9th I am on day 7 of being tobacco free and not 6 like my page says, We need to get this straight right of the bat!
Yesterday was my 6th day and it started off as a great day for me I had my head on straight was feeling great about having 6 days under my belt and then it came creeping out of the dark corners. I wanted to smoke, I was helping my friend with her cleaning and shopping and her mother smokes... 87 years of age on oxygen and I was acctually wishing I could have one of her sickerettes. What the heck was I thinking I was really struggling, I was doing so good and I asked for a drag. I must of left the club Larry gave me to ward these enemies off at home. I was p_ ssed at my self for letting it get the best of me. I going to rationalize here at least I didnt smoke the whole thing but I know, I know from all I been reading and educating my self on I have to stick to the
NOT ONE PUFF EVER......NOPE
What was I thinking? It was a hard day all the way around I had been getting cravings left and right and I thought I was handling them pretty well when the one that got me jumped out of nowhere and attacked and succeeded.
Now here is my question for my mentors on here I know it is best to do this cold turkey especially after reading most of the material I have been reading, when I had set my plan into motion I had purchased the gum to help with the cravings but that is just putting the nicotine back into my system and essentially making it more difficult to rid myself of the DEMON. Here is the question, if I find myself in this kind of dilemma where I am having a hard time fighting the craving & finding it difficult taking the advise from Allan Carr's approach to welcome and embrace them, do I chew a piece of the gum?
You long time EXers out there what is your opinion regarding this. I want to succeed at NOT Doing That ANYMORE.... Should I refrain from using the gum or use it when and only when I feel it getting the best of me. Help!
My friend wanted to have game night where as 3 of the people who join us smoke, I had to decline to this night of fun telling her I didnt think it was a good idea yet for me to be around these 3 since they all pretty much chain smoke and I am still to raw to handle that unconscious brainwashing smoking has created.
That little monster is still very much alive and needs to be smothered with the realization that I am not missing anything , that I am gaining everything.by not smoking.
