As I was walking into the building to work this morning, for some reason, my ex husband crossed my mind. He has passed on a few years ago, however, I was married to him for quite sometime. We had several kids together. We were kids when we married. Long story short, he was abusive. Both physical and mental. I remained in that relationtionship much longer than I should have. When I finally divorced him, I had received counseling because I was an abused women with an illness they called codependency. Eventually, I overcame all of it. The abuse, the codependency. Several years later, I remarried to the most wonderful guy in the world. I look back on my old life and it's like I am looking at the life of some one else, not mine. Because of all the beautifuls things that I experience in the life I currently live, I dread the thought of ever living my life that old way ever again and I would do all within my power to make sure that I did not. The thought occured to me this morning that quitting cigarrettes is like getting out of the abusive relationship. I guess because it is. No matter how co dependent you think are on cigarrettes, if you have any amount of quit time behind you, you are experiencing breathing better, more money available for more important things, the possibility of living longer....just a whole host of wonderful things that far out weigh what you think you would gain by continuing to smoke. The abusive relationship and cigarretes are one in the same and you should do all that is in your power to stay out of it's grips. Just a thought I had......maybe some of you can relate!
