As I am sitting here looking out my window at my beautiful pond on a beautiful fall day in S Mississippi I am hearing this nagging voice taunting me with smoking. At first it was disturbing my peaceful relaxing. As I sit and contemplate this voice and it’s message I am overwhelmed with the realization that this voice is not new to me. It didn’t show up that day I quit. It’s been there since the day I started 8 years ago and directed my actions every day since then! It was just that it was a “friendly” sounding voice saying, “hey, let’s go sit outside and have a smoke! You can even call your sister while having it!” Or one of 1000 other nice friendly suggestions. Pretty much ever couple hrs every day.
My how that “friendly” voice changes when you take away those cigarettes! It becomes a nagging, pleading, whining (way worse then a toddler) voice that will drive you nuts until you take control and retrain it to say something else.
I realize now that my missing piece in dealing with the voice was my thinking this was a new voice. I’ve been trying to silence it, make it go away, but it’s a part of me that has always been there. I can not make it just disappear. It’s About changing the narrative! Im so relieved! That I can do!!
