I think this is actually GRRRRSSSday and not Thursday. I have been in a mood today that made me want to run away from MYSELF. The weather started out looking nasty and they kept warning of severe storms, it sets my joints off. I went to bed early last night but I did not get to sleep because my landlady’s puppy was apparently playing hockey in the living room most of the night and the living room is right above my room. They have hardwood floors and I cannot begin to tell you how loud it was. I turned the TV on to drown it out a little but between the TV, the puppy, and the oxygen concentrator, and my fan, the noise just made me feel overstimulated. I finally got up at 5:00 and that’s a ridiculous hour for me to be awake but I couldn’t sleep so I read for a while and tried to lay back down. I eventually fell back to sleep for a while, not sure what time…but I got up on the wrong side of the bed. I usually do the exercise bike early but I did not get to it until afternoon and by then my joints were having none of it and I was feeling more and more tired and short of breath. I forced myself to do the half hour since I couldn’t go to the pool today, I HAD to get this part done. I have argued with the contractor, the utility companies, and my husband trying to get this stupid house demolished and I think that today I might just have reached my limit. I am normally a pretty patient person and not rude to other people but today was NOT my day. I had to go to the store and a person on a small motorcycle pulled into my path so close to the car that I had to slam my brakes on, tearing my shoulders and pushing the steering wheel into my ribcage. My window was open and I yelled as loudly as I could in my best Tony Soprano voice, “What ARE you STUPID???” This person turned a horrified face to me and said, “Apparently”. Walmart was filled with all of the MOST stupid people on the face of the earth and everything I wanted was on the top shelf and pushed back, I had to climb shelves if I wanted anything since I couldn’t find an employee. It was NOT a good day and I am so glad to be home now and to not have injured someone. Some days are just NOT good days, did I think about smoking? Not once. I walked past some guy who was smoking and I could feel my body stiffen to get away. There are good days and bad days and there always will be. I think I was rude to ExAdmin because of an email I got…like I said, NOT my day! Tomorrow is going to start out brand new and shiny and it HAS to be better than today. Love you all.
