I dreamed that I smoked a cigarette last night and I was SOOO disapointed in myself! UGGGGH! I am sure that many of you might have had similar dreams in the past (curious to know).
I am relieved that I realized it was only a dream (thank goodness), but I will also tell you that I am scared of this coming true. I stay strong each and every day. So far I have had at least one strong urge each day, since I quit (1 month, 2 days), but this was the first time it entered my brain while sleeping.
One thing I cherish is sleep. I don't require a whole lot, but definitely like to shut down, and allow my body to rest---so this dream disturbed me so much that I woke up at 3:45 a.m. and have not been back to sleep. Once I am up, I'm up! I do take medication to shut my brain down at night, but somehow that didn't take last night. Why on earth is my sub consciousness still thinking about these damn cigarettes! Yes, I know, it will probably pass as I allow my body time to heal and from the addicition, I just needed to vent a little. So thanks for being here "board" where I could write it all down, and work through it.
It was only a dream!
