It was a double edged sword...I was envious of those who had entered the Quad Squad...1000 days smoke free...how was I possibly going to get there? I remember people on the site saying how much they would pity people when they saw them smoking...pity them...no I was ENVIOUS! So how was I going to make it to the Quad Squad...a feat that in day 10, day 40, day 79 seemed unattainable...when I was ENVIOUS of people who still chose to smoke?? Would I crack? Would I throw it all away just for one last dance with Nic the Jerk? Would I give in? The answer was NO, not today, not tomorrow and not next week...I will be stronger than my excuses and stonger that Nic the Jerk who just loved to whisper sweet nothings in my ear. How did I finally attain what I thought to be unattainable? One day at a time...sometimes one second, one minute, one hour at a time, but today I stand before you, the Tigress, ROOOAAARRRRING in 1000 days of freedom. Was it tough? Of course it was...life happened...A LOT of life. I had a blood clot blow up my foot in the Caribbean, I was dianosed with a herditary blood disorder, my beloved grandmother died, my uncle died, I lost the job I loved after a buyout and just recently I was diagnosed with Type II diabetes, but through it all I had to figure out different ways to cope. Sticking with it was the best thing I have ever done for myself. And all of you out there that think it it unattainable, take it one day at a time, don't look to far into the future...it is to overwhelming...and remember what Guilia always says...Day Won never another Day One! Thank you to all my EX family for always being here no matter how long I have been away! I am so thankful to have made this journey with you! Thank you my dear sweet Ellen for reminding me of today's amazing milestone! I love you more than you know!
