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Survivor spoiler - don’t read if you are a fan and haven’t seen episode 1

Livebetter2023
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Hi all,

Did anyone else see the first episode of Survivor?   My heart broke for the contestant who chose to go home on the first episode (not voted out).   She mentioned needing nicotine a few times on the show.   It made me remember much smaller things that I turned away from because I wanted to make sure that I could smoke.   I usually made up other excuses for why I couldn’t do something rather than admitting it because I was ashamed.   I hope the contestant on the show is full of peace and I wish her well and I am sure her decision was impacted by other things as well.  And I am so thankful that I am turning towards life rather than away from it because of this addiction.  Not smoking is harder some days than others but living a smoke free life is worth the work and just awesome.    

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I’ll be 50 this year and smoked off and on since I was a teenager. I quit for several years at a time- many times. When my kids were younger and I was smoking, I would never smoke in front of them and hid it well and I thought I controlled it well. A few years ago I was on a vacation in Italy and saw people smoking and it looked SO good. I became someone who only smoked “internationally” lol. That didn’t work very well and when some very real stressors popped up at home, I was smoking again full time. But now my kids were in college so I didn’t even have them to regulate me and was soon smoking as much as I ever have. I am quitting because I want to be free. I love to travel. I love to hike. I love to work out (but only when I am not smoking - I’ve missed it). I want to enjoy my life and I want to lose the shame. I felt so much shame about smoking and I want to and will be free.