I have been so proud and thrilled with my new non smoker life the first two weeks. Hard as heck many ways, but overall, I felt really good and confident. But the past few days I’ve been struggling and almost stopping to buy some several times. It’s like I think it will solve a problem for me. So many times in the past I did relapse. This time, daily pledges are helping so much. Being encouraged by the great freedoms y’all have attained. New morning routines. Lots of exercise. I’ve been struggling with emotions. Tension. Overwhelmed with work and solo parenting and life and anxiety. And smoking makes it worse. But I want the nightly check in texts I received the first week asking if I had any nicotine. How can we request these types of things? I’m at some points so proud and confident and other times, becoming more shaky. Not one puff and keep them away from your face! It doesn’t fit with my new healthy lifestyle with all the benefits and none of the downfalls.
