For the past 4 days,I have managed to stay totally away from the smokers while they are smoking at home (we always smoke outside, never in the house) and fortunately no one I am around at work smokes. This morning as I walked out the door to head off to work, there it was, a half smoked cigarette and I know I heard it call my name. There was even a lighter right next to it and I know it flicked itself at the same time the cigarette said "psst psst, hey before you go, lets get together for a quick puff" Well I managed to keep going and not touch it, but I am so afraid of the day I walk out the door and hubby is sitting there smoking and I can smell it!! These cravings right now are sooo hard even with the patch. I read the blogs and comments here and I see from others that it really doesn't get much better for awhile. And then I wonder how much is this patch helping and what is going to happen to me when I don't have that! My sister and brother both smoked, laid them down cold turkey and never seemed to have a problem even when I smoked around them. They didn't even gain that much weight. Why can't it be that easy for me. I smoked the entire time I was taking care of my Mom who was dying from lung cancer. A few minutes after she passed and I had to call the hospice nurse to come, I was on the phone telling them my mother had just passed away while I was lighting that cigarette. And trust me, her passing was not oh so peaceful by any means. Certainly not the way I want to die. But I am still fighting the urge to go have "just one more." Thankfully I did not give in this morning, but with each craving I think my resolve is weakening rather than getting tougher. When does it begin to subside? How do you get around family members that smoke?
