Today is day 53 of my quit. I struggle less frequently with the craves but when they come they seem to last forever...hours, no matter what I do to busy myself or distract. Twice, day 30 and day 45, I went to the store and bought a pack, lit up, took a few puffs, felt disappointed and disgusted with myself and threw the packs out. Wishing they sold individual cigarettes so each lesson didn't cost me $8.00. I don't know why I am so weak to this addiction because in all other areas of my life I am strong and able. I am trying to focus on the fact that in 53 days I would have smoked 530 cigarettes that I have not smoked. I read a blog today that said as a smoker you are just waiting and moving toward your next cigarette and now as a quitter you can sit..and just sit and enjoy. I still feel I was more focused, organized and on task as a smoker...my addiction talking I know. Going to try rereading material, prayer and meditation, relaxation. Any advice or thoughts about if anyone else felt this way would be welcome....thanks for the support.
