Step 2 ... first day ... so far so good. Woke up this morning and wanted a cigarette ... but the feeling wasn't overwheming and I made it through. One day at a time ... and sometimes one moment at a time.
What makes you think you can't quit now? You can quit if you really want to quit. Please educate yourself, go through the separation exercises and read, read, read anything you can find. I recommend Allen Carr's book, The EasyWay to Stop Smoking. It worked for me when I thought there was no use for me to ever try to quit again. I know how awful it feels to be a prisoner to that cigarette. I can hear in your words that you don't want to be a prisoner either. Don't give up. It feels sooooooooooooo good when you don't NEED that nicotine fix anymore. Please let me know if I can help any more. We are all here to help, we all have a common goal, to stop and stay stopped. Just reach out and any number of folks will be eager to help. Be gentle with yourself. I have been quit for 4 Months, 3 Weeks, 16 hours, 15 minutes and 15 seconds (143 days). I have saved $747.12 by not smoking 2,873 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Week, 2 Days, 23 hours and 25 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 9/7/2008 11:10 PM
Thanks, Bridget ... I'm not where near giving up on quitting. I really just get so tired of fighting. I've won a lot of battles in this war ... but I guess I'm ready for the war to be over. And I know the truth ... the war is over ... when I decide that it is over. Or, at least that is what I hear from God when I talk to him about it. I've been fighting this for about 5 years ... but it has only been about a year ago Oct 2007 that I really understood that I have a choice. Up until that point ... I thought I was completely helpless. Sept 2008 was another turning point ... I've gotten closer than ever before. Kind of like climbing a mountain ... and the top of the mountain means winning the war ... the war within myself ... to make a decision and to never go back. I'm close ... but not there ... Just tired ... I had that one cig butt ... but nothing else today. Just trying to get through today ... but I hate that emptiness inside ... that empty part that just wants to be filled.
Congrats Stacy. It is hard, but I know you are strong and you can do this. Those urges last no more than 5 minutes. Distract yourself during these times. Take deep breaths that seemed to help me. You will get through this. BE BRAVE DO NOT CAVE!
This is so hard ... when that feeling hits ... the desire for a cigarette ... I feel like doing ANYTHING to make it go away. Like a true addict ... I found a "useable" cigarette butt in my coat pocket ... it was only a few puffs but was enough to make THAT feeling go away. Gone through this enough to know that I can't quit now ... but oh, how I wish, that feeling would just go away! I'm so tired of fighting it!
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