Hello Everyone,
So I originally found this page when I *thought* I was permanently quitting on 09/03/14. I lasted almost a year until I started dating a smoker. Typical addict thinking started sinking in. 'I can take a drag and be fine'. Then, it became 'I'll smoke half a cigarette' because that's better than smoking the whole thing. Then, 'I had a bad day so I'm just going to have a cigarette'... and you know the progression to smoking just like I did before I quit in September. Took less than a week to become a full-time smoker again. All that work.... down the drain. But I don't give up easily. On anything. And I won't give up on this. Since my last post in November, I was hospitalized in March for PEs and DVTs (blood clots in the lungs and legs). They haven't really determined what caused it but smoking is most likely a factor. I am now on blood thinners for the foreseeable future. Another reason I know I can't be smoking is this time around, my gums started bleeding and my teeth felt like they were becoming loose. I was thinking, "my God, am I going to lose my teeth over this" Maybe. Very possibly, if I continue. I have come back to the community because I received so much support last time, I was completely overwhelmed and blessed. Since a few people in my personal life are not happy with me since I had a relapse with my smoking, I don't feel like I have their support anymore. I need all the support I can get. So here I am.... 7 days in.... and it's definitely been pretty rough at times, which I expected.
Have a good day!
