Something triggered me to wait.... and I am not proud of it

[sickofsmoke2]

As you all know, my quitting date is the 31st.  I have been posting blogs on how ready I am to quit before...

Well I wasn't!!!!! And I am very upset.  My daughter had a serious personal problem I had to step in and help.  This caused me lots of pain, stress, and very high anxiety.........

I failed to quit on Friday night.

I couldn't deal mentally with both things,  I feel ashamed right now.  I am shooting for the 31st with all my heart.  I think I jumped the gun too soon thinking I was ready away before.

I couldn't get online since yesterday to let you all know this.  I feel like crap right now!

[radiorich]

  Hey, girl....Don't make it bad on yourself....We all have times....Do NOT give up, your day/time will come, it will happen,

you can do this, and you will SHINE ! ! !

[Yaya2.6.10]

Do not be ashamed - just get ready for the 31st.  The hardest thing for me was putting my Quit first ahead of kids, friends, husband and whoever else crossed my path.  My thoughts and prayers are with you and your daughter.

[pir8fan]

No need to feel like crap! That is not helpful! Regain your FOCUS! Re-build your DETERMINATION!! You do not have to wait to re-start! But you do have to prepare! Laser like focus!  Iron-willed Determnation! You can do this if you will!

[pam-c]

One minute at a time, one hour, one day.. one week.... every minute you are not smoking is a success. The more you understand yourself and your triggers, the better you will be prepared to ward off those urges.  You can do this,  pick the day and go for it.

[pam72]

Yes. Don't feel bad. You are right that you weren't ready. Do it while you are doing it and then when you stop, stop.  When I was gettting ready for my quit date I was still battleing . Then I realize, Now is when I smoke and when the date comes, I won't and I just let myself smoke.  I did make sure I had some smokes left so I could distroy them when my day came up. Smoke the last one I was going to, then put the rest in a plastic bag with some water and crushed them up. Geez ! Was that some dangerous looking stuff.  You'll get there. It's okay.

[eddieg121]

DUST YOURSELF OFF AND TRY AGAIN!! NEVER STOP QUITTING.

[neen]

Sugar, stop feeling so down.  You can do this, just take this time to make sure you are ready.....and remember we are here if you need us!

[kate8]

Start before your quit, cutting out triggers. Stop the cig. u have after eating. Then stop the 1st and last smoke of the day. It will help when quit day comes. If u quit trying, You will never know what quit was yours! You can do this. Love ur quit.....

[keeptrying2]

Such good support and advice for you!  Sometimes the timing is just not there.  Do what you need to do to take care of these things so you can move forward and concentrate on yourself.  You will not regret it!

[kitkat8]

Hang tough.  This is not the first time I've quit smoking.  We all have big and small setbacks.  The important point is to just stay in the game.

As eddieg so eloquently put it:

DUST YOURSELF OFF AND TRY AGAIN!! NEVER STOP QUITTING.

Thinking of you.

[Thomas3.20.2010]

Perseverance is failing 19 times and succeeding the 20th! Never quit the quit! Just remember what you learned and KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE PRIZE!!!! You will get there and we'll be with you every step of the way!

[gator3]

Never feel ashamed. Feel PROUD, as you have made the decision to quit.

When it happens is the task at hand, and if it takes a few attempts to get started, that is okay. But be proud of your decision and move forward.

A track star may have a falst start, but they still run the race!

Be strong and hang in there.

[hwc]

Trust me. You are not the first person on Become an EX to skip a quit date. I could be wrong, but I highly doubt you will be the last.

[sickofsmoke2]

Thank you all for this support, in my heart this is priceless...

I can't help to feel this down, I was on a rush and thought I was soooo ready!  Then Bang! sometimes happened that really hit me emotionally, and there I was reaching for the killer stick without a second thought!  How weak is that?  I am not having a pity party here, I can assure you that.  I am very upset at myself because I had the 'determination of steel' before everything hit me like a hurricane.  I totally disregarded my decision, whether I did it unconsciously or not.

I am doing better today.  I am not reaching like a loony for the pack as I did Friday, and Saturday, and some part of yesterday... It took all I had to come here last night and post my failure.  But, now I am trying to concentrate on my goal as best as I can.

You guys are awesome, and I truly mean that.

I am stronger today, compared to the last 2 days...  Thank you for being there.