Where do I start? Lance's job is doing temporary layoff things. True it has been only a week a month so far but that week of no money when you are use to it being there is a big deal. We have been so stressed. But so far we have been doing ok with paying our bills and getting food for us and the girls to eat. Some of that has to do with my planning ahead with the meal thing. I have been buying extras. It might just be a extra thing of a hamburger meat or 2, mac and cheese, pasta and a veggie or 2. But hey when you are need to feed your kids you will be surprised how many meals you can make with the extras you buy a week.
I finally ... damn how do I say this without sounding cold hearted...... I have no idea. hummmmmmmmmmmm? You know how some people just have to have drama and bs in their lives? Well I am not one of those people. I cant stand the drama and the bs. It gives me a headache. I can't handle being lied to either. And she lied to me over and over again. Well I had someone in my life that always had to have that stuff. So I cut them outta my life. I tried to warn them but they would not listen. Then I get a text saying " I guess I made you mad. please let me know you are alive" OMG I told you to lay off all the bs. I told you to stop with all your drama. I told you if you dont then that was it. I told you I was not going to live not a second longer with your lies. I told you I spent most my life searching for you, wanting you to be in my life. YOU kept running away from me. YOU didn't show that you loved me. YOU showed that you only loved the child you have with your husband. What about the 3 of us you had with your first husband? I was the only one of those 3 that gave you the time of day for yrs. So now I am done.
Well that is all that I have been dealing with. And Now I am 11 months smoke free. To celebrate I am having Lance cook.
