"I don't want to be a smoker anymore and I'm trying real hard not to be."
My Very First Pack
I remeber the first time I saw my older brother with a pack of Newports. I told him he was stupid for ever even thinking about smoking with cigarettes. I always though he was smarter than me but now I see the truth, this makes me the smart one from here on out. I was sure to tell him he was wasting his money trying to be cool and for who? I COULD NOT for the life of me figger out why he would buy something that would kill him, he was already in with the cool kids.
I wasn't cool at all, I had no friends and I didn't smoke like everybody in my family, I was proud of that but no one cared. I tried to make friends but I was too shy and what would I talk about? I did have one line, it was "what time is it" after that I had nothing.
Trying to be cool
My cool just fail into my lap on day on the way home from the store. I found a pack of Kools 100s on the side of the road in a bag. It was like magic, I was just hanging out not smoking but passing out smokes, that's the secret, it's a ice breaker. I felt very cool, to go from not even being looked at to being asked you for something, it was a game changer, even if it was just a cigarettes, there still asking ME - THAT'S POWER. so I though.
I had friends now and they was all like, "I didn't know you lived over here, have you been in the house all this time". It even got to the point where they would come to the door and ask for a cigarettes but then my money ran out, I was cool no more.
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