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Smoking now would just hurt me quicker

JonesCarpeDiem
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          After 16 years of not smoking, I believe  starting  back smoking 2 packs a day would do more damage quicker than if I had never quit.

         They've resected and burned pre-cancerous areas of my esophagus 3 times a year since 2013 and that removed a great deal of elasticity from it and thinned the membranes. 

          Starting up smoking again would likely end it's useful life.

          Did I do that with smoking?

Probably the biggest contributor.

          When I wake up with reflux a couple hours after I fall asleep, choking on acid I reach for a special liquid that coats my esophagus to protect it.

Last night I took a huge gulp of prescription mouthwash.

When, I realized what I'd done, I took a big gulp of the coating liquid, and then another. Then, I lay there wondering if I had created some horrble chemical reaction by using both of them together.

          Smoking is doing or has done damage to each of us.

How much? Well, I'm finding out. 

WHAT ABOUT YOU?

 

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About the Author
Hello, My name is Dale. I was quit 18 months before joining this site and had participated on another site during that time. I learned a lot there and brought it with me. I joined this site the first week of August 2008. I didn't pressure myself to quit. HOW I QUIT I didn't count, I didn't deny myself to get started. When I considered quitting (at a friends request to influence his brother to quit), I simply told myself to wait a little longer. No denial, nothing painful. After 4 weeks I was down to 5 cigarettes from a pack a day. The strength came from proving to myself, I didn't need to smoke because I normally would have smoked. Simple yes? I bought the patch. I forgot to put one on on the 4th day. I needed it the next day but the following week I forgot two days in a row I put one in my wallet with a promise to myself that I would slap it on and wait an hour rather than smoke. It rode in my wallet my first year.There's nothing keeping any of you from doing this. It doesn't cost a dime. This is about unlearning something you've done for a long time. The nicotine isn't the hard part. Disconnecting from the psychological pull, the memories and connected emotions is. :-) Time is the healer.