I have never been one to bitch and moan ever! But I really do feel comfortable enough to get just a few things off my mind. I hope nobody minds. Today was day five with no smoke and things really hve gotten muck better. How ever other than this site I havent had one ouce of support from anyone I know! I dont know if it is because nobody thinks I can do it or if nobody really cares. Days 3-4 I have been sitting in a hospital 3 hours from home because my girlfriend (who I love dearly) has been haveing surgary on her spine. Talk about a downer not only that but I have been the only one here. Helping nurses and doing what ever else I can do to help. She is sleeping peacefuly now but I dont know for long. As I lay on the small fold up cot along the wall I find myself asking why do I have to be the stong one this time? When am I going to get alittle help? Why am I the only one here with here? Dont get me wrong I would be here anyways but someone to talk to someone to help me help her.I know I am way out of line and I am sorry for take up this space I just though maybe a few people would understand. I know I am not going to but I smoke would taste pretty frickin good right now!