I got clean from drugs over 3 years ago and this nicotine has such a hold on me. Last night my husband made me feel bad about my cigarette addiction for the last time. He has done this several times. I will stay up late and when I'm in bed watching tv I smoke a lot but he has the same addiction and he has periods of the day he smokes more like when he is on the video game. Any how that was the first argument as newly weds. I feel like it gave me the push that I needed to quit. Like the icing on the cake. I smoke cigarettes a lot because I don't want to relapse. I still think about using and think about sneaking off to do so. I think trying to quit with all this anger in my heart will work. But I am very emotional and tense. I have only been 2 hours since wake up without a cig and I am very distraught. I have this post it note on my desk that says- Delay, Distract, Deep Breathe, Drink Water and Discuss. I also made a "List of Reasons for Quitting". I really want to do this for my health, my finances, my daughter but mainly because I want to be 100% drug free-and nicotine is a drug!
