Setting the date

[jennifer-knight]

Today, I decided to quit. I set my quit date for 1/1/9. here is how it happened:

I was having a cigarette today outside. Tired of freezing to have a smoke. Can't breathe. Can't think. Put the cigarette out, and came into the house. Look up and see the urn on the shelf. There are two others just like it, one at each older sister's house. Remember the large angel at Dad's. Mom's in there. Mom's in all of them. I start feeling angry. Why did she leave us? My babies are so young. My son will most likely not remember her. Can I help him remember her? See my smokes on the shelf below the urn. Irony at it's best. Gotta do something about this. I miss my Mom. I want to be there for my kids. Wishing I could have taken Mom's pain away. Is this what my children will feel if I don't quit? Get out the computer, Jeni. Use your head. Start up the computer, join Become an Ex. Inspiration? My babies and my Mommy. Do it for them. Do it for me. Do it. Do it. Do it. God D*&%, Jennifer, quit smoking.

I have set my quit date. It is 1/1/9. I will do this.