So I'm going on 30 days nicotine free in another couple hours and I've really noticed some MAJOR changes in the past week or two. First of all... My husband quit too and we haven't been as close lately. I think our smoking was something in common and a reason to be alone and talk. Now that we don't have to sneak outside together to get our fix so we don't talk as much. We have pretty much just avoided each other for the past 30 days! We are also on edge more so more fights seem to break out between us. We haven't done anything together this month. We've had a few family functions but we barely talked and sat in seperate rooms. I'm really hoping we can figure something out here cause I'm not happy and I'm sure he's not either. I know going back to smoking won't solve the issue cause that is pretty pathetic if smoking was the only thing holding us together. I think we are just new to this different lifestyle and trying to figure it all out. It's not as horrible as it sounds...just kinda sucky. I miss having fun and going out. Now I don't have a life cause I'm too afraid to go out and relapse.
Another thing I've noticed is my smoking friends don't seem to happy for my quit. I've even had a tell me "you know you want one, I'll give you 1 and won't tell anybody." I told her "NO!!!" Geese!!! This is hard enough without my friends actually wanting me to fail. I know what it really boils down to though...misery loves company.
This is all ALOT of change. I didn't realize how many things were going to be affected by my quitting. I just want to be happy! I know smoking won't help, but I don't quite know how to get back to some kind of normal.
