My quit date ended up moving about a week or so. It seemed easier the first time when I was the one who chose when I quit. This time around, it's the surgeon choosing when I quit. That made it tougher. That along with other personal challenges. So the moving target finally stops. My quit date is September 13th, 2016. Tomorrow morning I begin life anew. I'm committed to sticking to it, and taking things just one day at a time, one moment at a time, and no more. I do hold the belief that my previous quit of 4 years wasn't all for not. I have the belief and the faith that my previous quit will help me immensely with this one. Sort of like riding a bicycle- once you learn, even if it's been a while since you rode, it won't be as difficult to pick it back up again. However, I also hold no illusions that it will be easy goings. The first few days will be less than pleasant. Again, one day at a time, one moment at a time, one breath at a time. My last dance with nicotine is over. I look forward to waking tomorrow going through life living, not existing. Perhaps in a future entry I can talk about why I ended up going off the rails and blew my original quit. I wanted to extend sincere thanks to those who wrote supportive messages, they are greatly appreciated. I look forward to re-learning from some of you, while I re-learn some of this myself.
- s
