My name is Ashley and I am new here. This isnt my first day its acutally my second. Im just starting by tracking my cigarettes and figuring out what my triggers are. I actually should ahve quit about five months ago but I havent yet. I have only been smoking for almost two years now and I know that's not too long but its long enough. I have a problem though. I want to quit but I don't want to. See I know i need to quit because I am actually five months pregnant with my first child. I shouldn't even be smoking being pregnant. I always thought that smoking was something I would never do but I have grown up around smokers and I surrounded myself with people that smoke. I guess peer pressure sucked me in. Then I always told myself that I would definately quit whenever I got pregnant but here I am..still smoking. I have cut down alot and really I know if I forced myself to do it I could stop without too much of a problem. Its just that I enjoy smoking. Its relaxing and i love ahving something to do with my hands. Its not the nicotine thats hard to let go of but the habit itself. I don't want my baby to be around smoke or breath in the second and third hand smoke. Also I no longer surround myself with people who are smokers so they hate the smell of me and my clothes. My boyfriend wont even come close to me after I have smoked. I have so many reasons to quit but its super hard cuz I love having a cigarette in my hand. Hopefully with the support of everyone on here and the steps to relearn life without cigarettes I will be able to do it.
