I felt a big success when I quit smoking tobacco cigarettes 7 years ago. My favorite cigarettes were 27's. I quit smoking cigarettes by also getting clean and sober via a rehabilitation program. Once I was out in the real world I replaced my cravings with a rigorous and committed gym membership and plan. I went three or four times a day. I felt great. No smoke, no drugs. Two or three weeks went by .... smoke free, when a friend recommended a vape and pod system with nicotine salt juice. This became my vice for all. Love at first toke. The queen of smoke. I always kept my friend circle small but it would be shocking for all to see how many times I would puff on that thing throughout the hour. Even to myself I started to feel ashamed. It wasn't like I took a break, with a few puffs. I was puffing on that thing hundreds of times a day. It's been that way for 7 years when I replaced cigarettes with vaping. Today my life and spiritual awareness has changed. It's time to keep up and keep my soul clean. I do not want to inflict harm on myself or others. Taking a drag on my vape was a place where I could feel safe and all to myself. All to myself is not where I want to be anymore. Centered in self is not where I would like to be. Oh that sounds serene. Let me add, safety is my main priority for this current commitment to quitting vaping. For me, Quitting is a risk and that's why I need help. I've tried cold turkey and believe it or not I was driven within 48 hours to the emergency room by my family members for acting like a complete psycho. When I say acting like a complete psycho, examples of my behavior- hallucinating, speaking in tongues and afraid to go out in public, avoiding light, I had a psychotic break. By the time I got to the hospital, I had gone to the store and purchased a juul and was completely normal. All was well, it was literally just the nicotine withdrawal. I do not have very serious mental health issues but my addiction to nicotine is something extremely fierce, given these circumstances. I'm afraid to say, the amount of receptors in my brain is far more than most. I have been vaping non-stop for years, I own my own business and work independently and away from most people so even at work I have been getting away with vaping, all the time, any time. It is shameful. The consequences have finally weighed in. I cannot get away with it any longer. My body, my soul, and the spirit is pleading with me to make a change, so today I am committing to making that change. I need to make the change in order to see something different happen. Better things will happen. I can make better things happen, by freeing myself from this self-sabotaging relationship with vaping. Letting go of my addiction will let me open new doors. I will manifest better intentions and a happier life. I hope for a better quality life for myself and my loved ones. To quit this habit, this lifestyle, is only the start. My dreams will come true, I will persist and be ruthless as needed. All will be well, one day at a time.
