alright so this weekend was one of my best friends bacholerette party. while such an occasion would normally incite excitement and jubilee in yours truly... i must admit that due to my new non-smoking ways i was slightly afraid. well really more anxious but there was some fear there too. you see.. alcohol has been my downfall in the past.... so i had resisted tasty cocktails up until this saturday to ensure as much time away from cigarettes as i could before i tackled my biggest trigger of all. i had also made the decision that although i am now a NON SMOKER FOR LIFE.. i don't want to give up alcohol and i am not going to. i enjoy a glass of wine with some girlfriends.. or a cold beer at backyard bbq's or just sitting in my house or really anytime is a good time 🙂
so off i go to enjoy an evening out of the town. i decided that no matter what i was not going to smoke. the end. it was just not an option. thankfully most of my girlfriends don't smoke and are very supportive.. so i just hung out with the non-smokers and enjoyed breathing! i did have a few moments when the nicotine junkie reared his ugly head and tried to play mind games with me. i was battling that whole -- one cigarette won't hurt me. i will only smoke this one while i am drinking and then won't smoke anymore. but you know what? i have fallen for those lame ass lines before and they are LIES. one is never enough! and one is always too many!!! so i did not smoke and i am so proud! now i know i can do it 🙂
so here's to another day and another victory! stay strong and keep fighting!!!
