Goodness gracious, I want a cigarette so bad right now. Horrible, no good, very bad day today.
Alot of emotional stress. ALOT. I almost broke down and bummed one off a friend. But the minute I started talking to her, I let it pass.
Plus, the military possibly not getting paid for an undetermined amount of time freaks me the hell out. I don't know how we're going to survive. Keep it in your prayers everyone - most of us military families live paycheck to paycheck, and rely on it. I'm terrified right now. 😞
The last 5 hours have been horrible. HORRIBLE! All I want to do is smoke. But I know it won't solve anything. It won't make me feel better. It won't do ANYTHING for me. I'm getting through it WITHOUT cigarettes. I just hate how strong the cravings are today!
On the plus side - I hung out with my friend & her husband that are smokers this morning .. and didn't even want one then when I had the opportunity to smoke. So, I'm taking that as a good sign!
Here's hoping tomorrow is a better day!
