One thing that I love about this site, is it seems that you don't get forgotten in the daily rush of things!
I haven't been around much, but each day I have been fighting the good fight.
I have been thrown into a bit of depression. Okay, a big depression. I know a lot of people experience this earlier on in their quits, maybe mine came later or maybe it is something else, I don't know.
Because of the later set in depression, I have been thinking about cigarettes a lot longer it seems than I thought I would be at this point.
If you google quitting smoking and depression, you will find the two linked, over and over again. Although I must say that that should not be a deterrent for anybody to stop smoking. After all I figure I would be a hell of a lot more depressed finding out I had cancer or something from something I willingly inflicted on myself... it is always important to remember the BIGGER picture.
I've had a terrible time with sleep. I don't know if this is from depression.. if depression is causing insomnia...or insomnia is causing depression... or having quit is some cause for the insomnia which is linked to depression or what! Oh so confusing!
My depression is not coming from missing smoking or grieving the loss of a 'friend'..the cigarette.
I'm working on it... trying my best. In various ways from attempting to get in at least an hour of exercise daily, eating better, dealing with emotions, doing fun things, ect.
I hope it will pass soon. I KNOW it will pass soon. I want to know who I am underneath this w/o smoking to temporarily 'mend' it.
