Once Upon a Time

[Zendlewise]

Many years ago, I walked into my big walk in closet, shut the door behind me , sat down on the floor and cried.  I was not alone tho.  I had my good friend, Nic at my side.  I would never go anywhere without him.  My husband would never physically abuse me, but rather he liked to hurt me with words.  It made him feel better.  Young and dumb as I was, I actually took the abuse to heart, and thought that it was indeed me who was inadequate.  I never really saw Nic as an abuser, tho.  And He was ---physically and mentally.  It was a visous cycle there...Nic was always there to lift my depression and stress.  It is no wonder my warped thinking imagined him as a friend.    One day I got strong.  I  chose not to be a victim anymore.  It's very hard to break away, but it is so worth it.  Everybody is worth it.  You are worth it.  Don't let anyone keep you down.  Fight.