I've been married a month already! What I like about my marriage is that our relationship is the same, except now we're married. I like it because we have both been our true selves prior to our wedding. No nasty surprises. Anyone who has ever gotten married and realized their spouse isn't who they portrayed themselves to be, knows exactly what I mean. I married a good man and I'm am so grateful and blessed.
Yesterday at the end of my work day I so wanted a cigarette! The addict in my sure doesn't want to get with the program this time. It's not constant craving. And I don't let thoughts of smoking bother me - except that crazy dream I had the other night! - it's just the anxiety. I know smoking is not the answer to anxiety, it just causes more for me. When I get uptight about something, like my job and that's quite often, my first thought is a cigarette. Ugh. I can hang, but I would love a break! I know it will get easier.
I do have to say also, that smoking is NOT my first thought when I wake up in the morning. When I first think of it, usually in the kitchen when I'm making coffee, my thought is how glad I am that I don't have to go out in the cold to smoke. That's a happy thought.
So maybe roller coaster ride is the best way to describe my emotions these days. LOL
How is everyone else doing today? I think I will look around!
Thank you for the nice messages yesterday, and to Teddy, for letting me know I should blog my journey and where to post replies. And 'Never quit quitting' is my mantra and my message. I wish I had kept track of how many times I've "quit". I can't even imagine how many times it would be.....for sure more than the 8 - 11 times I've heard it takes a person to quit for good. Has to be more than that!
