I am angry at myself for having to yet again post a future quit date. After 5 years of on and off again quits it would seem as if I should be able to get it together. Last year when I quit in September, I promised myself that I would not celebrate another birthday as a smoker and I kept that promise but a few weeks back I allowed myself to get angry at myself over some poor financial decisions and everything I learned went right out of the window. It was like a door slammed and none of my stay smoke free tactics could get through to me. I am ashamed to say but at that point I did not care and my smoking was a way to punish myself.
At the end of the year I will have another birthday and I want to celebrate it and all the time between the next birthday as an ex smoker.
It really is embarrasing to be in this position. I guess that is why I am not posting and will probably just blog here. I feel like anything I have to say is not trustworthy if I can not manage my quit any better than I have.
Quit date is June 21, 2013
