Well yesterday didn't seem to be so bad and then I went to bed. I tossed and turned until 3:30 am had all kinds of things going through my head keeping me awake. Got up at 8:30 am and have done nothing but cry. I just want this to stop. Help.
Janet, I'm on Day 6 and also having a difficult time today. For me, it seems to be about not having cigarettes to keep me insulated from other people. I'm just now starting to realize that one of the reasons I smoked was to keep people from seeing the real me. I've always been so afraid that they would disapprove if I weren't always cool, calm and collected. And as you know, we're anything but in the early stages of a quit. You did the right thing by asking for help. Tell people around you what you are doing and that you need their support and understanding for a while. Have some compassion for yourself as well, being willing to move through the days more slowly so that you can process what's happening, not get blindsided. Think before you pick up a cigarette. Writing in a journal is helping me with stuff I may not feel comfortable putting in a blog. The craves will pass. Remind yourself of all that you're learning. Stay Free!
Believe me, I know what you are going through. I smoked my last puff just after midnight on a Sunday night/Monday morning. We had snow most of the week. Thursday night, I didn't sleep much at all, plus we had a foot of snow. Plus, I had the flu. I found myself outside at 6:00 am running the snow blower up and down our long driveway. Go to the bottom of the driveway, stop, try to catch my breath. Back to the top, stop, try to catch my breath. I'm pretty sure it was the most miserable I've ever felt in my whole life. Not so much the quitting (the last thing I wanted was a cigarette, actually) -- just the sum total of the experience. Withdrawal, sick, staying up all night, cold, tired. Guess what? I got a good night's sleep that night, my flu started to clear up, and things got a whole lot easier. Wouldn't be surprised if the same thing doesn't happen to you later today. PS: watch the caffeine during week one. I had to stop drinking coffee after 4pm to try to deal with the insomnia at night.
Thanks everyone for the help. I have not had a cigarette in going on five days and today I feel like I just laid them down yesterday. I refuse to give in!!!!!!!!!!!!
Janet, I am right there with you. I am on day 5 and just plain aggitated and irritable. I really don't have a good reason why. THere is nothing I can point out as the culprit except that I am on day 5 of my quit. I don't want to be around people, but I want my best friends close for support. Maybe I will go for a bike ride by myself for some alone time. Hang in there...I know that it will pass. I have been here before, 2 years ago, before my relapse: the worse mistake I ever made. Don't give in like I did....you will have to go thru this again....NOT FUN!!
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