Not a good Day

[dashquit52]

II slipped but told myself it is all right. It's not all right I want to buy a pack forget all the progress. Oh please. Don't let me buy a pack. I went out today saw so many smokers oking. Told myself it stunk and it is not good for them. I got in the car my friend was smoking a cigárette. I died and ask for one. I got home hid in the kitchen smoked it couple of times smashed out of the kitchen, I thought. I later had a terrible craving and  I broke down. I thought educate myself, so I went to bed and thought what a terrible day. I am back to normal but I have to be out Thursday,too. I hope it goes better than today. My mom use to say,"God love me". I pray others get through they're days better than I did today. 

[Sandy-9-17-17]

That is the addiction pull!  It pulled you right back to it!   We do NOT have to give into that pull!  It's why we call it fighting to stay smober!  We fight through the craves, the urges, the whispers in our brains that call out to us.  Get back up and get back in the game, and start again.  Don't wait too long to start your new quit!  If you do, it only gets harder and harder again.   Was it your car, or your friend's car?  If it was yours, then you have the right to ask them to wait to smoke.  If their car, ask if they can wait til you get out of the car and don't be afraid to tell them that you are a new quitter and want to not have the urge.  It is a very strong addiction, and if around it, of course you will have to fight it all that much harder.  I could not let myself be around a smoker, and now, I don't want to be around them.  I can't stand the smell anymore.

I kept telling myself, I don't want to be a smoker, and saying that alone has retrained my brain into permanent success!  I never want to smoke again!  

I hope you are getting back to it soon!   We are here for you.   This is why we are here for each other, so that those who find themselves struggling can come and ask for help to get through those cravings/urges!  

Sandy 304 Days Of Freedom

N.O.P.E.      Not One Puff Ever   

S.I.N.A.O.   Smoking Is Not An Option

O.D.A.T.      One Day At a Time

"I don't do that anymore"         

Make these your mantras and paste them everywhere!   Dry erase markers on your mirrors reminding you that you are not a smoker and you are stronger than the demon itself. 

[dashquit52]

I need to believe that I can be a nonsmoker. The blogs are helpful too and your response.  In my mind, I need to believe I am a nonsmoker. It is a struggle but I want a goal of no smoke. N.O.P.E.