No Man's Land.....

[beckya2]

Well I know I am here.  The last few days have been tough and full of stress. I am mad, frustrated and feel like I am gonna punch something.  Between school, money, caring for my brother and doing my internship I am frazzled.  I forgot my patch for a day and a half.  Not ready for that yet.  I was very ugly and the demon thought he had an in.  It is like he is waiting sometimes for me to let my guard down and that is not gonna happen.  I know I will have good days and bad days.  Keeping my thoughts in check is hard sometimes.  Like when he says "you miss it don't you" or "you have given up so much, just come back and everything will be fine" I say HELL NO.  You are trying to convince me I miss you and I don't and you won't make anything better, you will just make it worse.  The song "Jar of Hearts" comes to mind.  The first line "No I can't take one more step towards you, all that's waiting is regret" is one of my key motivators that and all the support I have here.  I know my moods will level out and I sometimes forget this is a process that takes time and patience.  Thanks for listening.

[froguelady]

You will soon see an oasis in the desert.  Your moods will level out to joy that you did not give the nicodemon what he wants. You are doing great and it will get better and better.

Betty quit 3/16/11

after 50+ yrs of smoking, you can do this also.

[moody_9-18-13]

Love yourself enough to do what you already know is best for YOU . I've never heard of anyone that died from quitting smoking. 

[devin57]

you are doing the right thing, thinking and talking it through......  it's tough out there in nml, but you are going to get to the other side of this...  the struggle is real, there is no denying that, but coming out on top of it and not giving in is you gaining the strength to fight another day.  we are all behind you..............

[GreenThumb3]

Hang in there it gets better 

[linda.mustafa]

I feel you BeckyA , it's a nasty one isn't he?

You are doing great by telling him otherwise , you're right patience & time:)

You will do this 🙂

All the best x

[harry18]

That's the attitude keep the nicodemon away from you, smoking is like a bad relationship it takes all your money, he makes you stand out in all kinds of weather good or bad. there are so many good reasons to break you with him and I am glad you did. It does keep getting easier so hang in there before you know it the Nicodemon will be a distant memory.  

[ninepatch]

Way to protect your precious quit. It will get better. Congrats!

[LouiseR]

Great job kickin the nicodemon to the curb!  Keep stacking those days.  It does get bettr and better.

[Ms.J_11-10-2013]

He is always lurking around looking for an in.  Your body is trying to get used to the new you and it is confused hence the ball of emotions.  I don't remember at what part of my quit when I felt like that but I just wanted to Bit$h slap anyone that look at me sideways.  Deep breathing helped me alot.. Deep breath in~ hold~ deep breath out.  Do this several times and see if it helps.  If not ~ grab the biggest pillow you can find ~and  kick the living  snot out of it.

Jackie

[elvan]

Yell the word STOP...even if it is just in your head (it freaks people out if you do it in Walmart).  I got that advice from a SmokeStoppers Course I took years ago.  I cannot tell you how many times I thought that I was the nastiest person alive...it passes.  ALL of our emotions are intensified as we adjust to the REAL people we are...not the ones sedated by Nic.

Good for you protecting your quit!  Punch a pillow...let some of that anger out in a way that doesn't hurt you or anyone else.  You are doing this!

[joyeuxencore]

Good to vent! You have a lot on your plate. Don't forget the H.A.L.T. stuff:

Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired

This tried and true slogan helps us to stay in touch with our feelings and needs. Sometimes the onset of anxiety or a sudden drop in mood can be traced to our having forgotten to eat so our blood sugar levels are off kilter. Sometimes we may be carrying a resentment, or feeling lonely, or we are just too tired. Taking a little time out from our busy day to ask ourselves if we are feeling too Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired, gets us in touch with our feelings. When we know what we are feeling we can make choices and take the appropriate action to get our needs for food, companionship, or rest, met.

Being too hungry, angry, lonely, or tired, are conditions that leave us more vulnerable to the temptations that lead us away from our program of recovery. Part of recovery is learning to pay attention to these inner signals and practice appropriate ways to meet our needs and resolve issues in a manner that will enhance our abstinence and serenity.