Hi all, well it's day 7 today, I've made it 1 full week...I wish I felt good about it, instead it's a constant battle of wills with...MYSELF! I feel like such a traitor and an lyer..to myself. I keep chewing the gum and telling myself ok, ok, we'll break down and have one after this ____. But I don't have one and then the craving just backs me in a corner and I find I'm a snarling animal! Deep breaths..... eyes closed and chomping away on the gum and tucking it where it's supposed to be to get my fix. Man I feel like a drug addict and I hate this! sigh... where's all this anger coming from? I've smoked for 21 years (thank's military!) and I don't have a temper like this...is this the new me?
It had better not be... cuz I don't like this person who's a non smoker, moody, snapping, dizzy, can't focus on anything...sigh