was when I went out to eat tonight. Usually after dinner, I am dying to go out and smoke. I didn't think of one right away after eating. I was in no hurry. Just made time for more chatting, and not my constant anxiety to feed the monster. It did cross my mind after, hey I'm usually having a cig. right now. It is a small small taste of freedom. I'm in such a hurry to get to the real freedom. I still stare at everybody smoking and still think of cig.'s very often. Still have cravings. Even, tonight without thinking while I was on the phone, I reached to grab my pack of cig's on the table,lol, wait I dont smoke! I thought this comical, like when I go to drive a friends automatic, I always Ram my foot to the floor, thinking there is a clutch cause I'm so used to my stick shift. So many ppl claim to be able to smell better.This/that better. Not me. I can breathe a tiny tiny bit better, but nothing is a-whole-lota anything.lol. Maybe I am a slow healer. I am still hacking up tar and its almost 2weeks. How sad is that.poor poor lungs. I thought of taking this pill, clear lungs, but am really not so sure, I hate putting more crap in my body.
