The best cigarettes for me were ones that I was never totally awake for lighting up. I'd stubble out of bed, go outside and smoke. That was when I truly woke up--after the first or second puff. Moments of peacefulness and refelxtion. Some people say after a meal, which is good too, but it's not my MVC ( most valueable cigarette).
I never wanted the alarm-- no matter how sweet they can make the music-- to set the mood for the day. I always want my own thoughts to wake me up. My internal clock is honed in having smoked for over 16 years. I can usually get out of bed 2-3 minutes before my alarm goes off. Pretty cool stuff. I loved the quiet. It made me feel in control.
It's like the internal clock knows I'm not smoking, I want to sleep in. I hear the alarm and I don't want to get up, but I do. I haven't gotten up once before the alarm since I quit. It feels wrong. For so many reasons, it's just jarring to my day.
I try to fill mornings now with running for 15 minutes. I build up a sweat, my breathing is to heavy to take in a cigarette. I am not a physical sportsy athletic kind of person. I'm quite the opposite. I hate it. I don't exercise with impact. I need to find something I like that can offer the same benefits of running.
