This has got to stop.
I've been on and off this site, never posting blogs, just a couple comments and messing around with my profile. But I need the support. My last for serious quit, I used a different website, and I don't want to go back to it, because it would just be weird with all the new people, and I don't want to be a new people there. But here...being a new people here is totally different, because I really am new!
So, I'm 25 minutes away from my last cigarette. I've done all the steps that I'm supposed to. I know my triggers, and I've worked on separating. I have my patches. I have my Allen Carr. I have my hypnosis in my iPod, though I don't think I'll use that until tomorrow, because it's so late now.
I guess I just need friends. Will you be my friend?
Besides being a nonsmoker, my goal is going to be to come on here every single day. That gets a little hairy, because they're pretty hard-core about the Internet usage at work, but I can come on here every night and just hang. I don't smoke at work anyway. I mean, somedays, I run out and hide behind the other buildings like I'm in junior high, but usually, I don't. I will carry gum to and from work though, so I don't decide to hit the drugstore on the way to the train.
I want you all to know that, though I've been on and off this site, sort of lurking, for several months, I find you all very, very inspiring. Everytime I come on here, I see a scary video that reinforces why it's a bad idea, or see reason in the comments on the blogs that hint at the possibility of relapse. I know that with you, I can do this.
