Hello ex friends,
I have been a bystander these past few weeks. Trying to get a grip on my life.
I suffer from c- post traumatic stress syndrome and co-dependency.
I had some events and faced some triggers with my c-PSTD.
But – to me who doesn’t have co-dependency issues or problems in life.
I have had a very difficult time lately. My counseling has really helped.
I am crying a lot and have " flight" symptoms daily.
Smoking was one of my coping skills that I am not allowing myself to use anymore.
I 've had cope with my fears, stress, feelings of helpless, shame and sorrow without smoking. This has been very difficult for me.
But, everyone struggles are relative. I've learned that from a dear friend.
I feel connected to all of you. We all are struggling at times to find strength and the courage to face our quit with honor, humor and remain positive. I feel very lonely at night when I can’t smoke. But, I have been reading and listening to music.
I want to send a special thank you to Indingrl . Thank you for checking in on me. I am grateful for this site. I enjoy reading the blogs and message that I receive during the day on my cell phone. I think I will be adding even more friends. I also loved the blog listing the many ways to distract yourself from smoking this past week.
I just LOVE the blogs on our site. The blogs here help me with my c-ptsd, co-dependacy and keeping my quit.
Right now I just can’t sit and type – I tear up. I will promise to check in. Right, now it causes me stress to think and type.
I had flashbacks last night. But, the sun is out the birds are chirping. I am going outside after I shower and walk for most of the day. I will be walking without my old friend cigarettes and as most suffers with PTSD and co-dependency we can find it difficult to trust and have friendship or be in crowds so I will be walking by myself.
I know I will have message on my cell phone during the day that will make me feel understood, help me understand myself, make me laugh and bring me joy. This site is a blessing. It has helped me cope these past weeks.
I am disappointed that I’ve had a set back and have to struggle again after many good years with my c-pstd and co-dependency traits. My counselor said, I am doing well. l Actually she said i was doing great. I am working on deeping my faith, staying positive and strengthening myself.
Thank you. Take care. ((((hugs)))) M
