MaggieB Archived Profile

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Hi all!
I am 38 years old and have smoked since I was 15 years old.  WOW – that is a LONG time when you put it in writing and read it.  I joined this website in 2011, when I was attempting to quit…and here we are 2 years later.  I obviously wasn’t successful…in fact, I think I only made it a few days that time.  I’ve lost count on how many times I have tried to quit smoking.  I  made it for 6 months one time….and slipped right back into the bad habit.

I am married, and a step mother to 2 wonderful boys – ages 16 and 12.  We are a divorced family so our custody schedule is every other day/every other weekend (crazy, I know!).  The relationship with my hubby’s ex isn’t a great one…..so there is always stress there.  We also have my mother in law living with us (for 3 years now) and she has dementia (awful damn disease!).  Between the boys busy activities schedules, my mother in law’s needs, my hubby’s BUSY travel schedule (he travels approx. 3 weeks of every month),  and my full time job – I find it hard to believe that I can live a day without a cigarette!  They have become my “out”, my ME time, my support system for this crazy life.  Did I also mention that I have 2 labs…..they are 4 years old now and while my husband keeps promising me that they will start to calm down and be better behaved, I have yet to see it!  They drive me crazy (but not always in a bad way). 

I should also mention that I gave up CAFFEINE for Lent this year – and I mean ALL caffeine…including chocolate.  I came to realize that the caffeine was actually making my anxiety and stress WORSE.  (I should mention that I was a diet coke junkie and could empty a 12 pack in a day – don’t judge J)  See if I can do this…why can’t I just give up smoking?

SO…..here I am ….. attempting to rid my body of yet another pollutant.  I am on day 3 of no smokes….BUT am wearing a patch to help me deal with the cravings.  I have worn the patch before for short times, when I knew smoking was NOT an option, and they do work.  Although…now that my BRAIN knows it is not a temporary thing, I seem to be having more cravings that I did before.  Aren’t our brains fabulous and a pain in the butt all at the same time?  I wish I could just turn mine off sometimes.  I am my own worst enemy and as I laid in bed last night crying (because I wanted a cigarette SOOOO BAD), I realized that if I am going to do this, I need to give my brain a swift kick in the ass and start to focus on the GOOD. 

This is where you guys come in.  I need to know the GOOD, I need to hear the success stories and how wonderful it is to live a life of not smoking!  HELP me get through this……

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Hi all!
I am 38 years old and have smoked since I was 15 years old.  WOW – that is a LONG time when you put it in writing and read it.  I joined this website in 2011, when I was attempting to quit…and here we are 2 years later.  I obviously wasn’t successful…in fact, I think I only made it a few days that time.  I’ve lost count on how many times I have tried to quit smoking.  I  made it for 6 months one time….and slipped right back into the bad habit.

I am married, and a step mother to 2 wonderful boys – ages 16 and 12.  We are a divorced family so our custody schedule is every other day/every other weekend (crazy, I know!).  The relationship with my hubby’s ex isn’t a great one…..so there is always stress there.  We also have my mother in law living with us (for 3 years now) and she has dementia (awful damn disease!).  Between the boys busy activities schedules, my mother in law’s needs, my hubby’s BUSY travel schedule (he travels approx. 3 weeks of every month),  and my full time job – I find it hard to believe that I can live a day without a cigarette!  They have become my “out”, my ME time, my support system for this crazy life.  Did I also mention that I have 2 labs…..they are 4 years old now and while my husband keeps promising me that they will start to calm down and be better behaved, I have yet to see it!  They drive me crazy (but not always in a bad way). 

I should also mention that I gave up CAFFEINE for Lent this year – and I mean ALL caffeine…including chocolate.  I came to realize that the caffeine was actually making my anxiety and stress WORSE.  (I should mention that I was a diet coke junkie and could empty a 12 pack in a day – don’t judge J)  See if I can do this…why can’t I just give up smoking?

SO…..here I am ….. attempting to rid my body of yet another pollutant.  I am on day 3 of no smokes….BUT am wearing a patch to help me deal with the cravings.  I have worn the patch before for short times, when I knew smoking was NOT an option, and they do work.  Although…now that my BRAIN knows it is not a temporary thing, I seem to be having more cravings that I did before.  Aren’t our brains fabulous and a pain in the butt all at the same time?  I wish I could just turn mine off sometimes.  I am my own worst enemy and as I laid in bed last night crying (because I wanted a cigarette SOOOO BAD), I realized that if I am going to do this, I need to give my brain a swift kick in the ass and start to focus on the GOOD. 

This is where you guys come in.  I need to know the GOOD, I need to hear the success stories and how wonderful it is to live a life of not smoking!  HELP me get through this……

Brief Description

Countup Clocks, Flowers Countups at WishAFriend.com

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Location

lancaster pa, lancaster pa

Interests

beach, spending time with my family, spending time with my family

Skills

multi-tasker extraordinaire!, multi-tasker extraordinaire!