WOW, Today is day 6 and I am back from my medical procedure on my back. It REALLY hurt bad. I have no clue why anyone says "little pinch" when it is actually going to hurt immensely. I arrived on time and had to wait and wait......Even today my mother was arguing with me and I was SO thirsty I was giving her hand signals to leave me alone and stop talking to me! When they were taking me inside and she asked if I wanted her to come? The nurse said "oh no" at the same time that I said "NOOOOO, I am fine". I was asked so many questions so quickly. When the surgeon asked me "So, what are we doing with you today?"....I responded with...."YOU DON'T KNOW????" He was making sure I knew. So anyway it was not until after the procedure did they administer any drugs into my system to relax. When in the recovery room I fell asleep for 10 minutes which felt like 2 hours! I was and am so very tired. I just wanted to leave! Finally my mother called because she was there and I got let loose. I had some coffee and the drinks I brought before I left there. I am home now and so grateful it is over. I have no clue how I feel yet and I need to keep a pain journal for 5 days. Sigh of relief and hoping it helped some.
So today is day 6!!! I cannot believe that I will have a week tomorrow! This is so amazing for me. This has not happened in so long. Not only that, but it has not been torture for me. I have not been kicking and screaming like I thought I would be. I had one moment today where I forgot I did not smoke and that was after the procedure. When the nurse walked me out.....I was ready to light up. HABIT! OH, and when I got there? The person who had been in the room before me smoked because I said to the nurse that the room smelled like smoke. She told me it was the person before me. So the surgeon told me he was a 3 packer. The nurse told him how I had quit with pride in her voice. That made me feel so good. It was officially on his record that I was not a smoker anymore. WOW!
So I am home safe and sound and want to read some blogs on here. I saw a couple before I left today and was confused about some stuff already. Lets keep it simple. And if someone has more than one name, that is lame. if you are impersonating someone else..............that is even more lame. This is not a place for games. There are other sites to get your kicks on for that kind of stuff. I for one am very serious about being here as many others. Most of the people here are so genuine and extremely helpful. A few bad eggs do not have to ruin it for everyone else here. My personal opinion is that if we just ignore the negative games, it will go away.
Anyway, I really did not want to get into any of that because just by saying it I brought it up. I really wanted to update you on my medical prognosis. I will not know the results for a few days at least. That is why I need to keep a journal. I am being babysat by my mother today (OH JOY) because of the anesthesia I received. I am not supposed to be left alone. I am restricted for days with lifting as well. ( not that I can lift anyway) But I am on higher restrictions so they can see if these injections helped any or at all. BUT, day 6???????? No smoking for 6 days? Holy Cow! I actually tried to light up today just out of habit! FREAKED ME OUT! Tomorrow is actually one whole week. This has been one heck of a ride and I do not regret any of it.
I have learned a lot in one week. I am so grateful to the people on this site who have saved my butt. I have met some really great people and I feel so blessed. I guess this really was my time, huh? I only mean that I chose the 11th as my quit date but quit earlier and was so unsure if I was ready. My life has been a rollercoaster ride for a very long time so there would never be any good time for me to pick a date. I am just glad I went for it and that I am still doing it. Thanks to all of you I am learning how to do this and learning that I need to change myself and my life style as well.
Thank you for your prayers today. I so appreciate you wonderful people. I love my friends on here. YOU are the best!
Love,
Ali
