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I am a 55 nearly 56 year female have smoked a pack a day for 37 years and 1/2 a day for 5 years before that. Day after tomorrow I am saying goodbye to my lifelong best friend the cigarette. Who has always had 1 goal in mind ...TO KILL ME. Cigarettes were there when at 15 I watched my Momma die, nearly 8 years ago when I watched my Daddy leave this world both with smoking as major contributors to their deaths. 38 years ago when my beautiful, precious baby girl was born and for EVER good, bad, mundane day, or ugly event inbetween-if I wake up durning the night most likely I will light up. I've been diagonosed with allergies, sinus, asthma, acute bronchitis and COPD for years. I landed in the ER just over a week ago with chest pains and unable to breathe and it was bad. I have done all of this to myself. I take full responsibility for doing it and I am willingly and somewhat knowingly what I face STOPPING, The test will start again April 4th they think I'm still at Stage 1 COPD I'll be happy if they say Stage 2. I love life always have I love working and playing with my dogs shelter dogs others dogs. Love dogs. I love family/friend gatherings love to cook for them and be with everyone. I want to be there in the middle of it all! I have walked though HELL with friends/family and they have walked with me but I will no longer lead the way with smoking. I have tried countless ways to stop with little to no success-who walks away from their best friend?- I am! This time Thanks to becomeandex.org and The EX Community I feel a hope/faith/strength I've never felt before. I really don't want to live like that anymore. My FEAR is not of living without cigarettes its living with worse consequences than I have already created for myself. My faith lies in God-A Divine Spirit of the Univerase-and for me That Spirit lives in everything that is life and I am finding it here among The EX Community. btw I'm new to blogging and my iPad most likely still emotional from rolling off what feels like the other side of deaths bed just to give a little insight if I sound like a loon and for real I may be but thats ok so long as I don't harm other living beings. Love and Best Wishes to you ALL and Thank You so very much for being here!
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kentucky
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family, friends, dogs and dog training/my local animal control
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