It is raining here in Virginia all weekend so I need to keep my mind busy. This is 28 DOF for me and yesterday was a challenge. I thought of smoking most of the afternoon but did not give in. I signed final divorce papers yesterday and I became sad and depressed. That caused my back pain levels to sky rocket and I could barely walk. This is the time I used to smoke my most. I now realize smoking doesn't help with the pain, it just takes your mind off of the pain for a couple of minutes. I ignored the urge and my chihuahua named cookie and I curled up in the bed and watched tv. Stress always makes pain levels much much higher.
I am on a antidepressant that I started a month ago that my therapist recommended. My failed marriage almost destroyed me but I now realize God has His reasons for everything and I trust Him with all of my heart.
I thank God everyday for my new found family. Thank you guys for being here and I send hugs and kisses to each of you.
God bless
Carolyn
