Loser......

[sheilalam]

I'm so fragile in these days, depression, forgetful........bad performance at work, suspecting ppl around dun like me, etc.......actually I got relapse on last sat. because there was a birthday party of my friend in a night club, I was overloaded with beers, they all are non-smokers, so I smoked just on the way home alone. Yes, you can see these all are rubbish and I let this rubbish to be my f*cking excuse to get another puff. I'm so weak....................................I can't share how I feel with my friends cause I'm a closet smoker, I feel so lonely.....
I'm sick of resetting the clock.............................

[carole_]

Not a loser, just an addict going for the freedom we all deserve. And, yes, in the beginning, it is a challenge, but doable?...YOU BET. I had many lows in the beginning. I felt lonely without smoking to 'comfort' my alone time, I felt like I couldn't get anything done and in the beginning I didn't! I felt lazy, useless, etc. Tough feelings to fight every day on top of wanting to smoke. But guess what? You are not going through anything that we haven't already been through and then some. 🙂 It's all part of the process, it's all temporary, even though it feels just dreadful at first. I encourage you to keep going, don't quit quitting. "Enough is enough" will hit you and you'll protect that quit no matter what. I got 'sick of resetting my clock' too. We ALL do. That's when the "final quit" truly happens. We finally get sick of being sick. We get tired of justifying killing ourselves with a slow suicide. It all comes together at a point when we'll do whatever it takes to stay quit and get through the first part of the process. I describe it like this, "I finally put on my big girl pants and got 'r done." And today, I could not be happier, healthier and productive. It took some time, but it was worth every step of the way!!! We are all here for you. Write before you light. Commit to your quit, you can do this. 🙂

[sara-lee]

Well said Carole....yeah...what she said!!! yea it's hard ...if it were easy everyone would do it!!!
keep on!!!!!

[cheryl-derrick]

Carole that was awesome. Shiela, you can do this, the sooner the better. Quit, protect it, treasure it, appreciate this and choose life We are all in this together!

[edith2]

The secret to a successful quit is a positive attitude. You may not feel good about yourself right now, but you can change that. Tell yourself you can quit, even if you don't think you can. Act as if until it becomes reality. I believe you can do this.

[kristi4]

I know quitting is soooo hard. It is sooo worth it though, when you get over the hump. In those weak moments, you have to delay...if you wait..the craving will go away. You can do this. I know you can. Please try again. Reset your clock as many times as you need to. Stop drinking booze for a few weeks. Wait untill you are strong enough. You have not lost, if you have not given up. It is just so worth it. It is something that I personally willl think of as my greatest accomplishment of all my life. I do not have a family yet. But, how can I have a family if Im risking my life. This is why, it is the best thing of all my life. I can finally Live. ANd so can you. Be strong.