Day # 8 has quietly come and gone and check it out, I am almost through day # 9! Well, # 8 actually wasn't that quiet after all... As a reward for not smoking an entire week, I took myself out to a delicious sushi lunch. And just when all was right between me and the world and I wanted to pay my check, my wallet had simply disappeared and couldn't be found, no matter how hard I looked in all the possible and impossible places. BOY was I mad at the world. There, I am trying to reward myself for a job well done and boom - this is what I get for having a little fun. Needless to say, I very much felt like smoking a whole bunch of cigarettes and seriously considered buying a pack out of spite, but - how do you do that without any cash, credit-, or debit cards, haha??? Well, after a minute or so my head and my emotions cooled off a little and I headed back home to cancel all my cards. About five minutes after arriving home, my phone rang and a woman named Anita told me that she had found my wallet in a parking lot, with everything still in it and untouched. Wow, now that made my day. Thank God I had no means to buy myself a stupid pack before, I would have been extremely upset with myself! Lesson learned. Don't act on an impulse, ever (at least where quitting smoking is concerned ;).
Well, on to day # 9 and I have to say that so far it's really been an easy one. It feels as if things currently sway back and forth a little. Even last night I felt somewhat exasperated, not because of cravings but because of a constant sense of deprivation, and I was getting tired of it. Yet today, I never even once felt like smoking a cigarette at all. Yes, I thought about smokes, as in "this is a moment where I would normally smoke a cigarette", or "oops, that's right - I do not smoke anymore". Yet an actual cigarette seemed less than enticing to me today. This doesn't mean that I won't miss smoking again tomorrow, as I said at the moment it feels like it's going a bit back and forth instead of steady progress. But still, an "effortless" day like today is a great encouragement and I am really quite sure that I will make it this time for good!
