Stopped Thursday June 12 at 6:00pm. Day one - I had no idea what to do.....I walked and worked - a lot.
day two - the morning was very hard and just getting from 5:00am - 9:00am is a very hard struggle.
The afternoon was pretty tough as well. Keep yourself busy. Try and stay away from people that smoke and people you care about. I was not very nice to those people yesterday. I made my 11 year old cry and my wife is not talking to me.
Day three - My wife did not get up yet. I wonder if she is still upset?
61 hours clean.
Day 4
All is OK. My wife and kids understand (somewhat) about my change in behavior. We had a long talk on Sunday morning (fathers day) and we are good to go.
Day 5 (85 hours clean)
Tough to break old habits. But that is what they are there for.
Tuesday 6/17/08
116 hours clean. Whew. Almost broke down yesterday evening. The only way out for me as to take a shower and get to bed. It was 9:00pm.
Day 6
Wednesday the 18th of June.
Once again...I almost slipped into that old habit. This morning was pretty rough. I played with my 5 year old instead of smoking. Mind over matter. 7 days ago I would have had the smoke. Feeling good. Still stressed out. that little voice in my head keeps telling me it would be ok to smoke just one. The bigger voice in my head tells me that will not happen. The mind is a tricky thing. Bottom line. I did not smoke today. I will not smoke today. Last evening after dinner, I just had to go to bed. For a bunch of reasons. I felt sleep would put my need to bed as well. It did. I am breathing better and feeling better. I will walk, jog, bike ride, play tennis this summer. Things I used to do all the time before I smoked.
Day 7 Thursday June 19th. --------168 hours at 6:00pm. Damn! I am good.
Peanuts and Almonds... After this I will not be eating anymore nuts. Yesterday evening I took my little one down to the track at the high school. We alternated running, jogging and walking for a half mile. The exercise was good.
If you are just starting...don't mistake what I am writing here. I still want a cig. The craving is a lot less. The habit is a lot less. The need for some strange reason is still there. Like a phantom, lurking in the dark. The grim reaper with an outstreatched hand --- offering me a cig. My hand goes out each time....but by the time I put it to my mouth --- it is gone. WILL POWER, BE STRONG, LIVE STRONG.
day 8
not so bad today. i still need to keep my guard up. however, food tastes better. the dry mouth has gone away in the morning. Generally a pretty good day...so far. I have been up and around for 6 hours.
Day 9. actually woke up thinking of cigs....but not wanting to smoke one.
Golfing today....can't wait to get out and get busy.
Be well everyone.
No so bad...people were smoking around me and I did not want one.
Joe
June 12, 13 14 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30 - What more can I say...lets go...move forward...and count the days.
July 1, 2, 3, ...going away for a few days...catch up with my people when I get back. Joe
It is now July 7th. Clean since June 12th at 6:00. Oh Yea!
26 days and counting. I hope to stop counting one day.
This weekend I went on vacation. Not sure why but I really wanted to smoke. Relaxing by the pool ....sipping a drink.. sounds like a smoke moment.... Funny - how that seems like a smoke moment. It should seem like a non smoke moment. Who wants that smelly cig...with ash falling ...and then being surrounded by cig buts....poluting the area. Now that I think about it... that was a non - smoking time that was much better without a cig. Cigs suck.
July 10 and I can say I am done with cigs. 29 days and a lifetime of freedom. O-Yea!!!
July 25. 44 days and not counting so much anymore.
• Visualize yourself as you would like to be in 1 year, 5 years. Identify necessary steps to achieve your vision.
• Set specific short-, medium- and long-range goals, then ask someone you trust to review your goals and give you specific feedback and suggestions to improve them.
“Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.â€
- Confucius
September 29th
Thank you for the support as well.
She is home safe n sound. Back in florida. The last 2 days I have been dreaming of having a smoke. Maybe because all I saw when I got home was someone smoking. My will power will beat the urge. I cannot smoke another cig. I will not smoke another cig.
Nikkie - stay away from those things. They have a way of grabbing onto you and not letting go.
Funny - in a way my Mom made me not want to smoke even more. She woke up with a cough, went to bed with a cough... Always needed to haold onto that pack of smokes... Had to smoke before going to a restaurant...and then again after... before a car ride -- after a car ride.... I found it comical and somewhat sad.
Joe
November 12 and 5 months under my belt. Not so bad. It is all about changing your lifestyle, your thinking, the way you think about your future. It has nothing to do with your friends, family or co-workers. They cannot force a cigarette in your mouth and make you inhale. If you want to stop. Really want to stop smoking. Put them down and walk away. That is the only way it can work. If you can't do it alone.... try medication, try acupuncture... do what ever it takes because it is your life on the line. YOUR life. Not your friend, not your wife or kids, not your bosses. YOUR life. Your decision. You make it.
