Well, I haven't been writing because I have been super duper busy. I do still get online at times and read but I don't have a lot of time to do much in the summer during the work day. Summer is our busiest time of year so we are preparing for the incoming class in the fall (I work on a college campus).
I had to check my counter to see where I was in terms of days smoke free! 164. A crazy number. I never would have thought, even on the 2nd day, 3rd day, 4th day, that I could be here. I could be at 164 days smoke free. I thank heaven everyday that I took that leap, that I wanted to be smoke free enough to make that choice every day to not smoke. I still make that choice every day. I don't drink much wine anymore either. Not that I drank a lot before but I did like a glass of wine and a smoke. Nope, not anymore.
I am training for my next 5k which takes place mid June. I am riding bikes more and getting my kids out with me. My husband and I are going ziplining soon and we've set up a white water rafting trip for June. I'm not quite sure what happened but I quit smoking and I got bored. LOL. A good kinda bored. I needed something to do. I found something to do and these things are so much better for me and my family than sitting on the porch smoking all the time. Quitting smoking has changed my life. Yes, I still get angry and yes, I have bad days but I realized that my smoking actually made those days worse instead of better. Smoking didn't help me cope. It did nothing to make anything better. Getting to the point that I realized smoking made nothing better took a while. I was mad I quit at first like I wished I would have moved my quit date out further on the calendar.
I still tread lightly in situations where something could be a trigger. Summer is a new season for me smoke free. Outdoor barbecues and parties could trigger. #1 rule for me is to change the routines...this year if we are outside we are doing something...swimming, riding bikes etc... #2 I don't hang out with extended family much. Both my sis and my mom smoke. I see them for short periods of time but I will not plan little trips away with them or anything. My quit is too important. I'm sure eventually I can do that and not think a thing but I'm protecting my quit. 🙂
So, if you have 1 day or 100 days, protect your quit. Best gift you'll ever gift yourself!
