I have been chain smoking since I was 14 years old. I am now 49. I have only tried to quit a couple times in my life and each time I stayed smoke free for 14 days and I was absolutely miserable. I have no idea what on earth I would do without it. It is like my best friend, what I always turn to and it's there no matter what. I don't know what to do with my hands or how to actually fight these cravings. I have not attempted to quit again, yet but I did set a quit date. I just cannot seem to get my mind around this. I have had COPD for many years, and it is starting to catch up with me and I don't know how I'm ever going to be able to quit. I've had friends tell me that I'll probably still smoke when I'm on oxygen and the way things are right now, I would have to agree. This is a very long slow process for me. Until something comes along to make this easy, I don't know if I'll ever accomplish this goal. It's too much to wrap my mind around. I wish I had never started. I started smoking in high school to be cool like the cool kids. How totally ignorant. What was I thinking?
