New years 2010 was the day I quit smoking, I was doing so well...... June 1st came and it was exactly 5 months since I had a cigarette...then something happened which changed my life....forever and I have been smoking ever since!!! Here is my story...... My step father was like my real dad, he was diagnosed with a heart condition about 4yrs ago, as the years went by he got worse and june 1st he lost his battle He told my mum to call an ambulance because he couldn't breath, by time I locked my dogs downstairs and got up to help he was gone,laying lifeless on the couch, mum and I dragged him to the floor where I started CPR, the paramedics came running into my house where they took over, they tried everything then rushed him off to hospital. Long story short, that's a day I have been trying to deal with and have been finding it very hard... So there you have it, a lot more has happened since but I won't go into it now...so this was my reason for lighting up again, and tomorrow Jan 1st 2011 is the day I start the long road to being a non smoker Tonight I'm going out to drink and smoke my face off one last time, have a toast to my step father at the count down, and I pray that 2011 will be a better year for me Let the games begin
